Life from now on

It’s hard, all these things I set out to become. It’s hard. The bootcamp is like temporary bonus boost. I was superman for a few weeks.

To become that person again, it’s so so hard. At least from now on, I aim to talk, slower & louder. Move slower. Get back the social momentum. Have better financial income. Gain more weight to achieve 80kg. These are the things I want, that I can think of.

What I don’t want. Is to stay at home all the time. I don’t want a meal to be cook hours earlier until someone eat it. The meal itself, no matter how well cooked is degraded. I don’t need energy vampire, a person who always emo. I have my energy better spend on something else. I definitely, don’t need someone to fuck my plans.

I was so much better when I have a job. There’s such a big different. And girls could tell it. I can see it in their eyes.

A job = out of the house
When I’m away from house, I’m usually, away from comp. Which means I spend my time and energy on something else, like correcting my posture, socializing, doing affirmations.

Until I find what I want in life, in love, job = better than staying at home and I get things done and I get paid.

For passion beyond movies, gaming and martial art. Salsa seems fun. I’ll just need to invest time and energy in it.

Until next time.

Love more, play more.