The Leap
I’ve had this question in mind. Why not make diagnose for every girl who doesn’t respond well in the first 2 mins. Why just assume she had a rough day, cat just died etc.
I just realize the moral behind it. It’ll create a habit of believing that I’m still not good enough. A gap in the confident. Like the next min she doesn’t respond well, I’ll start analyzing myself. and that’s not real confident.
So real story: I talk to this chick in msn who we both don’t remember how or who added who. So I was playing around, chilling, asking her to guess my age. She just pissed off. I do sense she wasn’t a good mood, but meh. Later I found her blog and she just broke up with her bf. True story.
And last night date was awesome. Like there’s this comment from her, do I help this girl just because of her looks. (referring to a story last year) Now I remember clearly we talked about this topic and I explained what happened to her, but this women really don’t remember or she just ran out of stuff to say. So this time, I just agree with a smile, but not joking smile. The yeah right smile. Who cares about being accepted of judged these days.
On another note, I’m starting to think, maybe I’m trying to chase something too big for me at this moment, I’m trying to skip to the last few page of the book for the ending, for the top. The thinks that I learn and read, they are not usual 22 year old dude suppose to know. Yet I try hard to be better and bigger. No wonder none of my friends can understand nor relate. Or I just need to step into THAT world. That world, adult world, the world of the pros that none of my friends live in.
As previous life experience taught me, following the destiny that was meant for me is always easier. You see, it’s not reaching the top, but just being my best, doing what I could at best length, that’s what matter. The top and the best of the world? That just the last few page of the book. My story barely begins.
And so, tomorrow, going to club again after like a month. Let’s see how much fun I can get.
