We all try hard for it

I have to admit, things aren’t going where I wanted even though I tried hard. I guess I should have seen the signs, feeling tired, not motivated to socialize, playing dota again. Not that there’s anything wrong with the mentioned actions, but doing it for a period of time is not healthy for me.

I need that social momentum, where I tell the world “I am here” and fully expressed myself. I still haven’t figured out how much time I need to spend to socialize each day. I need one moment in each day, to be present, to say my mind’s words, to feel now and be now, say now. To be heard. Then I know I’m one with the world.