Work, Income, Finance

Once again, at the end of a year, I made a big leap.

In 2008, I quit the job I always wanted since I was studying diploma, it wasn’t what I imagined when I have it, and I didn’t realize, IT IS the job until I quit it few weeks later.

2009, I tried a few things, working in boutique as sales assistant, went University in a quiet town, crazy adventures with dating and at the end of the year, I decided to quit my degree.

I never was responsible for my financial status ever since I start working, I didn’t care for the long run, my life was just about what’s tomorrow for me.

So I become an insurance agent. I wanted to try this. I was never good at persuading someone, I rarely argue, most of the time, in fact, I never really bother. And according to Dale Carnegie’s law, “HE WHO CAN DO THIS HAS THE WHOLE WORLD WITH HIM. HE WHO CANNOT WALKS A LONELY WAY”, if I couldn’t arouse an eager of want in the other person, I’m gonna walk a lonely path, and I did. I have so much good things and great things to share. But I don’t even try, I simply just walk away if people are not interested. That’s why my life didn’t prosper, even though I got the strength to talk to random girls, I’m still running away, from commitment.

This job will be my first ever job that I’m gonna work hard and be responsible for my financial status. I made a goal to achieve a monthly income of 3k, deadline on June 30 2010. I also decided another target to complete in the year of 2010. To achieve blackbelt in hapkido.

So Why insurance?

Of all the things, why insurance? I don’t really know myself, I don’t have a grand nor solid reason. I didn’t even decide the time to join, I was hoping to finish my 2 books “art of seduction” and “awaken the giant within” then decide what to do with life.

Here’s what really happen. I pick up the phone and ask my friend, “get me in the insurance company” So I attend the motivation workshop, and one of the agent who appear close to my friend told me to come in the morning. So I thought “oh another motivation lessons, let’s try new stuff and meet new people” And I did went there in the morning, understand nothing what they’re talking nor doing at all. And when it’s over, the girl (agent) just drop me some forms and other form like interview questions. She just ask me to do it with a smile. And I was like WTF when I read the papers. When you have pen and paper on your hand, I don’t’ know what you guys will do, for me, I just work on it. Took me less than 3 seconds to decide to be an agent and I say “let’s do it” in my head.

And off I went through one of the most stressful days of 2009. Half of the morning I wake up, missing the days of day dreaming and catching butterflies like how spongebob catch jellyfish, the other half I curse myself for waking up so early and not even sure what I’m doing. The first few mornings were the hardest, I actually replay Rocky Balboa’s motivation speech in my head “It’s not about how hard you hit, it’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward”

And I just keep moving forward to shower and change while I talk shit in my head. The best part about these mornings are, I get the feeling I’m gonna own the world. A feeling I never had in my previous jobs.

Some days I felt like quiting, like “dude, let’s go catch some butterflies, chase skirts, get 7 gfs” On those days, it was hard, but I just shut up and not complain, and told myself, let’s try another day.

I definitely become much more proactive and aggressive in life. Other qualities, take times to develop. We’ll see.